coming to terms

[markey678]

so these past couple of years have been rough. Im shy and really haven't told anyone but my counselor, but I don't think I've fully believed it yet, still in denial I guess. Anyway I've had this bottled up for awhile now and here it goes..
I guess it started when I was about 18. I remember the first attraction I had to another guy, really caught me off guard and ofcourse I ignored it. I went to college and met a really nice girl whom I dated for over a year. It was great, it's the last time I was truely happy. Homesexual feelings became stronger, I got more and more depressed. I haven't made any new friends since high school. I've been living my life in a prison and I really just wanna get out. I haven't had any encounters with a man yet, but i'm pretty sure i'm gay. actually you know what im gay so what it's not such a bad thing. I just dont want to live in fear anymore ya know. ya only live once, mine as well have some fun right? So I guess this is like another step in coming to terms and accepting myself for who I am not what society wants me to be.

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[LonelyArtist]

I agree, coming to terms with it yourself is probably hardest. Once you've accepted who you are, coming out to others doesn't seem like such a big deal. Or even if you don't ever come out to others, it's nice to know yourself, anyway. The important thing is to be happy with your situation, whatever that is. Good luck!

[Gamoc]

Coming to terms with yourself is definitely a very big part in becoming happy as a homosexual, however you will never be truly happy unless you are able to find somebody you can open up to, which you are obviously doing here. If you ever want a relationship with another man, that will definitely require you to come out to someone who will be able to understand. I have noticed ever since I have come out that there are a lot of accepting people out there.

However, coming to terms with yourself is definitely a big step in finding your happiness.